I'm Sorry I Keep Pushing

I don't know why I keep doing what I'm doing and I know that one day you are gonna get sick of me and just say fuck  it. I don't want you to do that I hope you won't do that but I might be askin too much from you and you're only one person. I know why I keep pushing I don't like people to get too close to me because I always seem to get hurt. I don't like being hurt but I don't think you want to hurt me I'm just afraid of what might happen and that makes me a horrible person. I think I love you more than  i will ever tell you but I think you know a little of How much I love you. You already know I don't want to fall in love with you but I think if we're together alot that I can't help but fall and if that happens, well when that happens I wish I knew what you were going to do but anyways even though you might not read this I want you to know I'm sorry I keep pushing you away and I'm sorry you love me cuz I'm a horrible person.